I think it is difficult if not impractical to stay static in a relationship. Yet IвЂ™m tired of being alone. For happening 7 years now, IвЂ™ve held it’s place in this limbo that is gray. Bookended from a need to be and consistent, and a necessity to be free and separate and selfish and for myself. My final girlfriend that is serious away from our provided apartment once I had been 25. Ever since then, IвЂ™ve jumped so deeply into the bachelorhood rabbit hole that IвЂ™m beginning to doubt thereвЂ™s an exit, at either end. Searching strictly at the figures, my life that is dating has for around fifteen years, from freshman year of university to today. For the reason that decade and a half, committed relationships account fully for 4 of the years, or around 25percent of that time. Only 1 quarter, that also implies that for 75% of my adult life, IвЂ™ve been single. Then iвЂ™ll be in a relationship for 12 of those years, and alone for 36 if i live to 80 and maintain the same ratio. Three . 5 years of more of the sameвЂ¦I canвЂ™t go on it.
OccamвЂ™s razor would state, IвЂ™m single because we donвЂ™t would like a relationship a lot more than i do want to be solitary. IвЂ™m too more comfortable with bachelorhood, doing when I be sure to, without any life style security with no stakes that are emotional. ThereвЂ™s some truth right here. Every previous relationship has ended upon my effort. Possibly the desire in fact isnвЂ™t here, at the least not to ever over come the inertia of solitude. Maybe, despite statements and wishes into the contrary, my actions paint a easy photo: of someone who canвЂ™t forget about the freedoms and carnality and masochism of bachelorhood.